Are You Stuck Being A Cute Play Thing?

and if so, you know what M/s and D/s means; just dare read something different!

To say or not to say.

I probably waited too late to write tonight and had a long shiatsu massage then a long walk so I’m hoping my inhibitions are not so improperly dissolved that I launch hastily into this week’s promise from last week—which brought in one new paid subscriber within the hour (thank you very much).

But now that I started this it did serve to make me feel more obligated to continue lol.

You.

Have you thought about what I wrote last week?

Doesn’t it feel like you have put yourself on the back burner? Do you really want to continue this way day after day? What was at first your secret club with your partner; addictive nonstop commands, inspections, and elaborate lengthy “trainings” sparking intense emotional and physical bonding and which you believed would continue to evolve and become deeper and more spiritual—but… haven’t quite.

Right?

I don’t know, just for me I was always on the sites like live journals where all the slavegirls blogged about their Masters. But there were some concerns when for example, one gal was having her drunk Master play plastic bag-on-the-face play at night. And then she just stopped posting?

Later, after several years in my fifties-style “marriage”’ but intense 24/7 power dynamic I left but like I mentioned last week here, my mindset was sufficiently styled that I truly believed that was my role going forward still so I immediately dove deep into BDSM communities thinking it would be easy to find a Master at least as good as mine was (he was very a certain way) which totally was not true. It was not easy to find someone with his skills and devotion.